mom is right,
no one's here to stay forever;
you got to let go.
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Moment of Solitude.
Life's nth but a game,
people and friends are just the chess pieces/pawns/tokens.
of this long long journey.
they come, walked through the routes,
finish the game and leave your life.
These tokens/pieces made of glass,
bring the seasons into the game.
Never hold them too tight nor close,
for they'll shatter before you;
and prick you hard,
hurt you bad.
They burn you with the scorching summer,
and the heating passion/affection.
Throw you into the cold abrubtly;
after the passion wears off.
More pieces come and go;
to delude and create illusions.
all the confusions we got to battle;
and not succumb to the hurt each piece harbor.
The one piece that's made for you,
come through much pain,
and through all ordeals,
it'll be the only one that follows your pace,
by your side, through thick and thin.
These tokens/pieces come and go,
just light up their path when they enter your game,
bring them sunshine and hope,
and guide them through this course.
Keep them too long,
the flaws will surface.
They struggle too hard to escape,
and injure you instead.
Abstain from the love,
never let the emotions prevail,
don't let the passion flare,
and get over you.
Through it all,
along this entire course,
of this game, life,
stay aloof; and let the agony pass you by.
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where'd you go?
when will i cross the finishing line?
will you be the one that follows me through, by my side?
let this be our prayer
another week has passed; where'd you go?
Highlights…
-many came for friendly match on Monday.
-went to check out sweater with Hui Xin. 50 bucks, disappointing? Pizza for lunch (:
Bumped into Sabrina (: and Chengyi! =D all this on Tuesday
-training, friendly with Dunman High and yeah, Vjc came.
Repeated warm-up, he wasn’t sane as usual, though respected.
Out for Pizza hut again!, with the Vj peeps. Chatted, ranted, shared for an hour or two (:
The rain poured, on Wednesday (:
-today was pretty fun. HAPPY FEET! Woots! Dance, tap, dance, tap! I’m BOBO! However, chowchow refuses to be mammam): ah wells, we saw Jamie and friend there! =D and Amelia look hilarious during prom (as seen in the pic)
Went pasta mania for lunch, it’s a terrible place): firstly, there wasn’t my BANANA PIZZA. –POUTS. And I spilled hot soup on manda’s new jeans. ): sorry sorry =C thankfully there weren’t stains ya?
We were rather dead and tired, but, HAPPY FEET is NICE! And I’m starting to love not only dolphins but penguins! <3>Thursday! -Just training, piano and many thoughts today. My temperature went up on Friday): -went to sentosa with throwers. Unwell, ain't in the mood, ah wells; i was troubled by many thoughts. WE SAW THE RAINBOW! Me and the 2 birthday girls! Happy birthday! =D An equation for the day, me,myself+my shadow+music+sand+2 pails of unkind seawater(on a rock under the tree) ->loneliness+tears+fever+heartache+disappointment.
My heart wrenched on Saturday.-People that made my week: Melanie, Haiyun, chowchow, kimmie.
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Yesterday night I lay to ponder, over many things, much went through my head.
Allowed the tears to flow for once after so long.
If this week is my last, what would I have to say/do?
Life’s vulnerable, setbacks daunt us, but we have to move on.
I’d learn to cherish and not regret my past.
No one’s here for eternity,
Perhaps I have much to say.
I’m sorry for all that I’ve done wrong,
I’m thankful for to be able to impact and influence positively at times,
I’ll learn to understand that the world doesn’t just revolve around
Me myself and I.
That it’s not for my benefits but the joy of creating a smile;
The bliss of being able to be there for people I love whether or not it matters to them;
The blessing of being able to care and share.
The last thing I would say is to tell friends that have drifted apart:
You’re not forgotten for I love you so.
All I would like to do at this point,
Just lay back, thank God for all and pray.
Bask under the sun,
See the sun rise and set,
Watch the magnificent rainbow on green plains,
And watch the stars shimmer up in the enchanting sky,
Let the piano play itself and hear whispers lift my burdens,
Take away the weariness.
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Let me take the burdens and weariness away along with me,
Into my grave,
While you find happiness and live in bliss.
Will you realize my importance, only on my deathbed? Probably I’m not.
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i had a bad day, you add it one more.
If only you could understand how i feel.
If only i could care less about how you're feeling, bout your everything.
It was a starry night yesterday if you'd bother to look up and think of me.
I made a wish upon the brightest star, a simple wish just to guide you to where you're supposed to me. Nearer or away from where i am.
I hate to see the wound on your knee, does it hurt to see the scars all over me?
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You ask me if I love you, I choked on my reply.
Now let me say this, I love you.
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I feel messy, messed up. Packed, stumbled upon many.
Gifts from seniors, friends, cards, letters,
And yes, I’ve hurt you bad, I blame myself,
Its alright, I’ll let everything fade away.
Do you remember we once said ‘this diary/book won’t be enough to last for this year?’
And now? It’s not even ¾ filled.
Everything has lost its meaning.
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every time i try to fly,
i fall without my wings,
i feel so small,
i guess i need you dear.
Dancing in the waters, dance away the fears.
I try, i just want you to be happy.
Swallowed the tears, its alright, I'll suppressed it all.
You never fail to haunt my dreams. I wonder why.
let this be our prayer
a week has gone by, so swiftly.
many thgs changed, but not those i wanted.
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special days to mention...
14/11/06
tues was graduation-i was part of the organizing alumni and kim joined me!-geehee!
had fun mendling with the PA<3>tears.laughters.joy.the rowdy bunch. they're full of gratitude.they made my week(: CEDAR ROCKS! cedar primary* <333>
15/11/06
disastrous friendly on wed,town on wed,stepup too(: dance dance dance.
17/11/06
went fish and co. for the first time(: with machismos again! just like B&J!
then went to huixin dad's restaurant for supper!
cosy bay by the kallang river. its beautiful.
the stars were shining ever so brightly,
enchanting nightsky. everythg's seems perfect.
but somethg's missing.only if you were there.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIXIN! <333
hope you enjoyed(: performing on stage at fish & co.!
you sang in tune, for ONCE!
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thanks to those who made me smile.
kim,ella,melanie,volleyballers,throwers,chowchow,machos.
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i'm out, it SEEMs like it doesn't bother me no?
im tired, i really am.
mei gan jue le. yes, its true.
where are you? when i needed you so...
i know i will falter; i know i will cry.
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my attitude's bad,
i'm at war with the world.
i hate everythg, everyone.
i detest all that's laid before my eyes.
i need a break.
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can't wait for clique's sweater, team jersey and team bag. =D
let this be our prayer
ALONE;AFRAID;ALOOF
Self manipulated;
im ashamed.
the world's crashing;friends,family,love ones.
im
days of STACCATO-
DETACHED*
me, myself and i.
my piano and shadow's all that i see.
the burdens are all that's felt.
will you just let the tears roll down my face and let it be?
can you see the hurt in my eyes?
can you hear me calling out for help?
will you be there before my last breath?
im sleeping through this pain. the distant of my spirit.
it drifted FARFAR away from my body.
for the pain's inflicted on this shell's far too unbearable.
let this be our prayer
people leave, people has the ability to hurt once u start to love.
many loves=many hurts.
some realised they wounded me; some didn't.
just gonna do my best.
to salvage all that i've done wrong.
i've made my mistakes,
've got no where to run.
fell,sink,drowned.i feel off. neglected perhaps.
everyone has their own lives to lead ya?
everybody's screaming,
having fun.i try to make a sound,
pleading for forgiveness; for carebut no one hears me.
everybody's too busy with their livesforsaken;frayed;forlorn-it pains me to see you leave; does it pain you?i've learnt well, but its unfair to the rest.
i can't love anymore, neither can i trust. no more.
aches-
because of you,
i dare not stray too far from the sidewalk.
let this be our prayer
Sunday5th-
Went expo/church with Melanie (: met many juniors there and my primary school teachers. Rejoice for that!
Yes, I cried again. At the thought of me praying for you when you weren’t in the team, the thought of leaving you alone in Singapore. At that point of time…
nahh-- let the past go.-Condemned no more& as I
Rejoice for a
Reason and as I
Rest and
Reminisce the past, I pray that we’ll
Reaffirm the bond, trust & friendship.
Reconcile and may the peace of mind be
Restored.-Monday6th-
Training went on as usual. Conversed with coach, all of us did, but perhaps a few of us were more affected by it. I tried to behave well, tried to play and forget the troubles. I put in all the effort, just to numb the pain. I thought I did well, but he saw through.
Yes, and I thank God for coach somehow. He spoke to me, he said someone told him everything, and yes, I broke down. He talked sense into me, harsh but comforting. =/
I don’t know, perhaps the hurt in my eyes still lingers no matter how I tried to portray myself? Anyway, he just knew all that I’m going through, he wants to lead me out of it.
i don't wanna do this anymore; i don't wanna her her anymore. i'd rather leave myself hurtBut my nerves are wrecking and I’m tired.
My knuckle is looking bad.
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went to the library after all the tears shed.
With Kimberly, seon, hsinyi.
Ate and off to library(:
Yes yes. I borrowed a book on ice-skating, music history and human ‘history’. Finished reading the one on ice-skating(:
Then beep treated me to 2 chocolate éclairs and 1 coffee éclairs! At delifrance! -geehee. Thanks!
Thanks for being there just when I needed it.
A broken heart will continue to beat,
I won’t delude myself anymore.
Perhaps He sent him to tell me that I’m wrong.
I’ve faced the truth, and just wish you’ll choose my embrace when you’re all so weary.-Tuesday7th-
Went to Gardenia bread factory. Much learned and yes, the accompaniment of my dearest classmates again. 10of us and Jessica too! then off to butterfly part and we played crocodile! Hahh. The joyous times spent.
Shopped for groceries with bro, cooked, eat, wash car!
Washed/polished for 2 hours! And I found EARPIECE! GEE-pleasant surprise for dad before he comes home the next day(:-
Wednesday8th-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND!
Yes, another month has pass, I’ve lived thru yet another 7th. Training was not too bad except for some unexpected happenings, but we did have fun with vjc(:
Went tpy for pizza and library again!Borrowed a book on golden retriever and pets heroes. Then éclair! <3>
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Thursday9th-
went back to cedar primary to discuss and organize their graduation day.
met eyecandies xuanying and avril! oh oh! _GEEHEE- my lil ones.
much to be done.50discs to be burned.got to select songs app. 3hours in total.
sheese.much theory not done.
i'll survive(:
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went pp macs with rebecca, caught up.
what can be better than this? sharing all the bottled ups.
being able to talk to the long lost(:
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came home to bathe and went toapayoh delifrance w kim.
for ECLAIR! once again! =D
me and my bulging tummies!
saw KRISTINE! oh oh.its been 2 years! (: and im tall now! heh.
take care girl! she's working...
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off to wisma to get ipod repaired(: and fareast to shop and meet bec,mel,hl!
parted and left with kim soon after.
got necklace, bracelet, ear stud. (:
kim got STRAWBERRIES related products as usual!
hehh.i want a TIARA! -pouts.
they're like so PRETTAYE can! elegance...
then walked to cine and got 2 dog tags engraved(:
written..
the undaunted-
linxin1104
<3beep*
3,5,7,TEN<3
torto+algae=<3
*censored*
and prolly a shirt too(: geehee-
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im HAPPY!yes i am.thanks beep for this entire week.
yesyes. iLOVE spending time tgt.
just got to thank God for everyth today.
it's been great, simply fabulous.
the fun and laughter we had.
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tough week ahead=/
trng tmr followed by study then meeting senior to get presents and
settle some grad day things then piano(:
weekends- trng,burning of all the CDS and preps and mugigng with kim!
korkor too?
Anyone wants to mug overnight at the air port this weekend? (:
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undaunted by setbacks,
tgt we'll ride the waves.
we'll spur each other on,
and be there when forlorn.
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i try and i try.
everytime i try to fly,
i fall without my wings.
where are you my wings?
where have you gone.
its been long.
gruelling, hurting, tiring.
im weary. burdens weigh me down.
flat and low.
but i'll still choose to be your pillar,
anywhr, anytime, anyway.
standing strong for u whenever u're tired.
let this be our prayer
over the weekends(:
bro/cousin & I <3>
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went sentosa, had fun(:
played in the water, swam, got burried and R.I.P was drawn on me! =/
volleyball on land and water. dive...
played.tanned.enjoyed.
yesyes.we ran.we merried.
then.. kim and i went to get disposable undies...
& we were laughing so unglamly and hilariously in the CUBICLES! =D
the disposables were HUGE! real HUGE! u can pratically cover your belly button with it! hehh.
then i ate 2 sets of KFC at kovan.
separated and yeah, shopped arnd with kim till 9+ and off we go(:
muchLOVES<3>soak up the SON+
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training.went home and cooked(: then off to keatli's house:)
long way there but we really did have fun!
saw 2 was... horrifying yet thrilling.
hehh.fun fun.had great dinner there too(:
off to ICEKIMO!
economical yet BEST! its great seriously.
im happy.totally happy today! -GEEHEE-
iLOVEmachos! <3>banana waffle+mango icecream! yum yum!
and we designed our sweater(:
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sat-trng/piano
sun-church
mon-trng
tues-make sweater with huixin/learning journey
wed+thurs-trng/iceskate/outing w kim.
fri-trng/piano
sat+sun-mugging at airport w kim?
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that's all for now! =D
won't be blogging for e days to come i suppose.
got to do theory and mug!
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have faith. reach deep within for the hidden stars.
search deep within.
thank God for everyth;
and yes,i'll trust that im blessed.
let this be our prayer
