I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
When we lose our way

Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe

I pray we'll find your light
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night
Eternal light will shine

Let this be our prayer
When we lose our way

Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe

lin xin
11o41992
cedar primary`cedar girls
volleyball`track-[throws]


MYDREAMS/wishlists-
3 , 5 ,7 TENofus.
some overseas trip that lasts for weeks/months
mission trip to third world countries
a world embraced with hugs, kisses and smiles.
专署天使，（还在等待那个人）
untie the knot and be socialble?(:
just being happy and fufilling the dreams. -
material wants=/
1000piece dolphin jigsaw, a dog, a guitar&violin, a keyboard, ipl, the little pig!
C=D if only i could get them all. hahh-

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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

i SPRAINED 3 fingers):
and the worse part is not being able to play my piano without much agony):
-frowns. ah wells.
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much has been going on.cousin's wedding.
got to see a couple prepare for their next chapter.
(: post pics when i've received them i supp? (:
-
this week's schedule...
monday-volleyball training/mug/sleep
tues-volleyball training at kolam ayer
wed-volleyball training/mug/sleep
thurs-sentosa?/track training.
fri-volleyball training/outing with machos! <3
saturaday-piano lessons<3
sunday-church with melanie<3
-
One must be persistent in your disciplines and habits;
persverant in the face of adversity, hardship and challenge;
and determined to achieve your dreams no matter what.

No matter how well you plan and how well you execute your plan,
you are bound to meet with disappointments,
adversity and failure along the way to your ultimate triump.

Adversity is what gives you the opportunity to
develop your inner resources of character and courage.

Adversity is a great teacher.
It will test you and make you stronger.
But you have to hang in there and not give up.

Confucius once wrote,"Our greatest glory is not in never falling,
but in rising every time we fall."
Harriet Beecher Stowe said,"When you think it is never going to change,
press on a bit further, and that is when the tide changes."
-
perhaps it was me,
perhaps im the one,
perhaps i was dumb;
to allow myself hurt.
perhaps God sent u;
to strenghten me
the hard way.
-

let this be our prayer

Saturday, October 28, 2006

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TIME TO SAY GOODBYE.
-
2 years, 2 years, its been 2 years since i stepped into the gates of Cedar...
my first bunch of friends.
the ones that made me laugh the way nobody can.
the ones that makes me fume.
the ones that drove me nuts.
the most unglamorous i've ever came across...
despite all this... 2 years have passed.
and i certainly miss them.
time pass so quickly, i can no longer grasp.
it got me shaking..
how much time i've wasted dwelling.
-
CLEARED, CLEANED, CRIED.
the emptiness as each of you leave,
as overwhelming.
i certainly miss you guys.
HUIXIN, JOYCE, NAIR, KEATLI, VANESSA, CHE'RIE, WENHUI, XINYING, RAIHAN.<3
thanks beep for being thr(: i'll be happy when you're happy.
-
went lakeside to collect skirt with kim.
seon, friend, kim and i went to jurong east for lunch and off to check bout iceskating(:
was rather fascinated with the ice hockey trng's that gg on.
then off home bout 8.
LIGHT , LEARNT , LORD. im strong.
-
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training, weights, receiving is all we did for 4hours.
rushed over to pri sch to retrieve smth from my teacher.
dear Lin Xin,
here's a little somth for you to cheer you up a little.
we all go thru pain and struggle at times,
but its the strong that will arise.
so smile more ok?
Jast call me anytime when you need a listening ear.
God bless you, mu little girl.
Love, ms goh.
(:
then rushed home, showevered, ate cup noodles, played piano
and off to marina square to me yanhui, ella, mujia
ate at pizza hut and bumped into 2 seniors whom went of IP last yr(:
the world is small indeed(: GEEHEE_
off to arcade and bowling! korkor & i were hilarious,
and OFF! so noisy and rowdy=/ hehh.
but it was real fun, korkor dropped the bowling ball=D
korkor and i was literally UNSOUND!
-
hehh. then rushed ran rode for piano while korkor for guitar(:
PIANO!that's the best remedy to all heartaches and fatigue.
indulge in the melodious tunes as one sing along. (:
drift away to a blissful fairyland.
its sometime i wanna spend alone. (:
i dream of going to Richard Clayderman's concert someday.
-
today's smth i'll remember/
soon enough, with sheer determination,
i'll overwrite the unhappiness.
-
i see the trust you had in me diminishing?
sorry.
am i still ur friend? hubby?

let this be our prayer

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

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training was pretty bad. got whacked on the ear cum wrist cum bottoms):
im strong. everything's alright(: nodsnods.
went for pizza at toapayoh with kim, mich, joy, peishi.
had fun! i love CHOCOMINTS(: <3
then kimmie came over and we were all in piano for an hour+?
yes. the song holds alot of memories.
it was once dedicated... nvm. leave that out.
reticent... ...
-
then celebrated granddad's 85th birthday at long beach restaurant.
much events this month. grannie and granddad's birthdays and cousin's wedding.
all the clothes bought, dressing up and stuffs(:
crowds gathered as each took turns to feed granddad cake(:
i'll upload pictures if possible(: its a warm fuzzy feeling.
the unbreakable kinship. (:
-
drank red wine, pretty much.
dwelled. the past came floating pass,
where we drank outside the chalet,
where i felt so protective over someone for once,
the guys/ the coackroach.
all that we've been thru, have you all forgotten?
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lay in bed far too long... ):
went to the revolving restaurant
caught in the jam about 2hours? _-_ sheese.
i was doing theory! hahh. ;P got dizzy/headache.
then here comes good food again(: GEE-
-
then met yanhui, her cousins and mujia and bugis.
yanhui was ... eh.. FEMININE!
walked arnd, just roamed...
arcade? i want the BIG DOLPHIN , KAPAO & the minibanana)X
yanhui left. chatted with autistic patner.
bout all the stuffs... ilovespending time with you,autiti(: LOVEs.
-
have u forgotten all that we've gone thru?
the overwhelming emotions
the emptiness...
BUT I DO KNOW, i'm strong.
you lied, you kept no promises.
you and your replacements.
i hurt her, she hurt me, someone hurt her?
this vicious cycle... i need u.

let this be our prayer

Sunday, October 22, 2006

heya(: shall rewind 24hrs/48hrs.
1910o6
went to was deathnote with the volleyballers.
kimmie,michh,peishi,aina
bought 3 cookies from famous amos!
kim ate 1 and i ate 2(: wanted choco fusion but.. hah.
nice movie, at least it ain't horror.
will your last kiss to me be on my deathbed?
teared while all went gaga and hua chi. shrugs-
just got affected somehow. ahh wells,it aint worth it
211006.
the 10ofus -2 outing(:
we had loads of fun didn't we?
merry arnd in the ice skating ring! i didn't fall! GEEHEE-
yeah.we all had blisters on our feets=/ hahh.
i was given BETTER treatment cos of my unwell-ness? (:
ate alot! within like 8hours?
yong tau foo, kfc chickens, shrooms burger, sultana croiss, carrot cake!=/
huixin ate nth? diet? hahh! GEE-
nodsnods. skated for bout 4 hours.
REJOICE! (: met my bestie there-mengmei , 2ex school/class mates-tzekiat and yingjie and Sylvia!some friend i knew in church and at the amazing race!
tralalala.
huixin, joyce, parveen, raihan, che'rie, wenhui, xinying!
you all chased my tears far far away.
no others can make me laugh the way you guys did. <3>BOWL! i did well! yes.
and they made me feel EGO! boost boost boost! hahh.
didn't stay over at che'rie's house cos i ain't well. need the rest real bad.
but i enjoyed today! i really did.
iLOVEMACHOS! there's a reason why we're macho,
all that we've gone thru, alone & TOGETHER<3>221006
just home from spreeing with YANHUI at converse fair a 10mins walk away from home(:
shopped(: had fun.
bought shoes, flipflops, socks! (:
sales drive me nuts!
and i forgot that its SUNDAY! =/ oops oops.
nodsnods. linxin's back on with life(:
might me gg some sports fair at expo later on.. with mom and kim? shrugs-
(: loves hubby!
-
happiness and unhappiness/ just a stroke of difference isn't it?
its all in the mind(:
sudden thought.
be the captain of ur thoughts, not captive.
thinking is inevitable but u won't dwell unless you allow yourself too.
the thought that kept me going.
-
i hope i'll be able to find my wallet tmr. prayshard-
will be back((x
POOOF*

let this be our prayer

Saturday, October 21, 2006

I'm someone- describing all that she's actually going through but not wishing to say it out loud.

So lost, afraid, empty.
What do I exactly want?
How do I exactly feel?
unsure-

A piece is lost within me.
Like a fully done up jigsaw puzzle with just a piece missing.
Never underestimate that piece- importance.

However, the piece...
Never seen it before, not knowing the appearance of which.

A part of me is missing,
but I just don't know what.
What is the decision I want?
I guess I actually don't have the decision.
I used to, but got confused.

Cherish the past is all I know.
Never choose sorrow over bliss.

let this be our prayer

Friday, October 20, 2006

i had a bad day. some day real bad. ):
firstly... headaches. throb throb throb the entire day.
jacket was my saviour? perhaps for half of the day.
had nutrition talk and left my wallet in there? ez-link, cash, everyth):
-
fever, nauseas, headache, dizzy.
totally off. didn't train, no piano. nth.
doubt i'll be able to go out tmr=/
iceskating, beach, stargaze, sunrise.=/
-
tired. ihateu):why do you make me feel this way?
i do wish to have you here.

let this be our prayer

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

heart 'good' sour.
im tired; i really am.

let this be our prayer

Monday, October 16, 2006

disappointed. with the results. with you.
and you weren't there for me. what's new;dear?
?
poof* that's how i've been gg. each time u come and disappear. POOF*
-
to those who did well;
thank God. you're blessed<3
continue to strive(:
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& to those who didn't do as well;
don't give up.
the world won't stop turning,
stay confident of your abilities,
don't falter for it ain't everything.
be strong. tear no more. for i'll be there to wipe them off.
come what may, have faith for you're never alone.
God bless.
<3
-
training was... fine(:
stretch more beep. POOF goes the strains(:

let this be our prayer

Sunday, October 15, 2006

heya(:
here i am again. so fun so fun! hahh.
firstly, i gotta thank kimmie & ms goh for coming over rather LATE at night yesterday knowing i was low(:
there. all my dearests. i know i can always count on you. rest assured. i'll be there too! <3>this i promise you.(:
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okay. today i was an accomplice with kim on her mission of... (: shh.
hahh. so i met her at tm, got the stuffs and off to toapayoh.
a whole hour journey.
okay. i was saved from lowness by worship songs. +
hehh.yes. i had fun.and the security signal went off when we walked thru=/
freaked out. yes it did.
bought an off shoulder shirt with kimmie. hohoho.
fun fun fun. =D
and yes, i do love you(:
i hope everyth will go on fine for you alrights?
-
wanted to msg u, only to realise i've forgotten your number.
xiang wen ni, ni hai hao ma?
are u reading my blog? shrugs.

let this be our prayer

Saturday, October 14, 2006

heya(:
just back from SENTOSA.
worthwhile time spent doing amazing race;
the laughters, the interaction. thank God (:
first were clues to the merlion where we had to interview tourists who has toured the merlion.
then to the magical fountain where we sang twinkle lil stars and lao shu ai da mi for the tourists! hahh.
fun fun fun. the guts we had to portray=/
off to sisolo beach then to the carlsberg sky tower and took photos with an indian family.
hahh.off to the dragon train where we counted the no. of dustbins(: hehh.
then back to the ferry terminal! poof! we finished 2nd on this quest.
i've learnt well too. cancel cancel.
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thanks to my 2 lil juniors, magdaline&melody and other 2cedarpri peeps, lossini&kala.
not forgetting ms Goh! <3>
interacting with all the juniors, the fun.
got me off the unhappiness.
whoooshh... impressive, awesome.
&i do love God, like always. the way He love us too.
He led us to a place,
guided us with His grace,
to a place where we're safe.
-
tralala tralala.
the little discomfort of my injured leg and dizziness didn't matter no more! (:
neither did the haze matter anymore.
back into the warmth embrace of CEDAR PRIMARY.
i miss all of u terribly. the 7 & the 3.
-
are you getting on well with life dear?

let this be our prayer

Friday, October 13, 2006

heya(:
back from training. we slept outside the sports hall again(: okay. was real exhausted.
training was... not too bad i suppose.
more to say bout yesterday(:
i hope things are going well over your side,
stay strong no matter what.
i'll be here. listen to that song from me to you.
beep-
-
12/10/06
we had fun, loads of fun.
met at amk.
went off to wenhui's house, watched click again.
will you still love me in the morning tmr?
forever & ever, babe.
hahh(:
had fun had fun. and we watched saw): got scratched by huixin.
hahh. oh wells. and had kfc. didn't go icekimo? ):
hahh. then played with FIRE , candles and our BONFIRE(:
the10made me happy again(=
huixin, wenhui, che'rie, vanessa, keatli, joyce, raihan, parveen, xinying
--
lalala(: happy happy. then went home with huixin(: we talked, bought ichigo bliss and apple pies(:
hehh. muchloves darling.<3
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happy happy. (:
off to machogirls blog(:

let this be our prayer

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

10.10.06. (:
went to kimmie's house. baked apple pie for CHOWCHOW!
hahh hahh! ;P
had fun with all the flour and apples! i cut my finger=/
we had fun. though it ended rather emo-ly.
just wanna say, i love u girl(:
she must have been shocked when we gave her today! hahh. -winks

11.10.06(: prettaye good day :)
training ended.its was... okay.
being a fool in the sports hall:/
but at least i felt light and yeah, just wanna play!(x
thanks lovely for that 'booklet' kinda thing<3 muchappreciated :)
then, bathed in school and i fell on e stone chair.
swollen/bruised/bleeding ): how nasty.
iwannabathenomore):

called a cabbed down to marina square.
bowled=/ a low 42 point. _-_ hahh. had fun and kimmie's cat walking steps,
manda's slipping here and there and my twisting of wrist!
okay.really laughed and got hype(:
then watched WORLD TRADE CENTRE.
hahh. a very anti-climax show i should say, all the tears and laughter.
then off home sweet home, the way she reacted with the bag of apple pie,
its unforgetable(: hehh.
found someone as kuku as me! wahah..
kimmie and amanda! aka chowchow&beep(:
we had fun, didn't we? the laughters and smiles were so genuine, weren't they?
-
pain's our friend,
if we feel pain,
it means we're alive.
life's vulnerable,
cherish one another before you lose them(:
-
yh, im glad u accepted ALGAE² (:
when are we going to bowl and pool?
mujia,ella,me,u,inez?hah.
-
tralalala. linxin's HAPPY HAPPY today! (x
will be out with the10 tmr again!

let this be our prayer

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

had fun out today again(:
out to kimmie's us with all the baking and stuffs.
all e mess we created with flour and the retarded stuffs i did.
laughed. giggled. enjoyed. just let it all go.
thanks for today babe(:
we'll be out tmr again. with manda too!

beep:
fret no more.
have no fear, be strong.
u'll survive, let it fade.
i'll be here, evrytime u need me.
just a call away.
empty promises we probably get and had along e way;
just wanna say, i'll be here when ur world seems to chrash.
muchlove. stay strong sure?

let this be our prayer

raffles city: BEN AND JERRY! <3>frisbees and bottle from B&J!
ain't they PRETTAYE? hahh.
then we went to wealth fountain and maid a fool of myself.

this day.i'll cherish.create more memories. (:
had loads of fun from cine to raffles city to marina square to suntec(:
though i left early. geehee-
nair, huixin, joyce, wenhui, raihan, keat li, che'rie, vanessa <3>

B&J! GEEHEE. and we go MOO MOO MOO!

B&J
koi pond(:

-the time was 1718

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the NIGHT...

met kimmie at the vjc bus stop(: hehh.
and i met HUIXIN on the bus after parting! she was like stoning. hahh(:
u made me smile girl.
had fun retardering around.lol.

talked bout anyth under the sky. (:
kimmie went to get a GREEN BALLOON for macs(: though it flew flew flew away):
emo emo emo.i was high, real high.
okay.the coakroach crawled over my leg_-_ imagine how frightened we all were.
and we realise they were coming out from the 2 holes beside us_-_
then someone who just wants to be known as tortoise came along.
and brought lots of tissue!
okay..i cried, i teared, i broke down. after the 10% + 6% + 6%. =/
sorry.
thanks BEEP and TORTOISE for this special night.
thanks for the pleasant surprise. its my first surprise i should say.
came to realise the importance of all.
and my primary school teacher too. who called knowing im real low.
the tigger and pooh balloons. kept safe and in my heart.
thanks for sending me halfway home, i know i was real drunk.
still having a hangover):
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alrights. enough of un-glam matters.
muchloves to all that has made my day<3 i really do love u all. -

let this be our prayer

Friday, October 06, 2006

feeling like a pinwheel
colorful, brilliant perfect
the colors of paradise
it may seem

however, its just an illusion
not many would understand

it spins, it turns
all too quickly.
a metaphor to how im feeling now

blank, lost and empty
without my shelter to shield me from the wind

an ice age is occuring
deep within me
im freezing..
will you be back here to hold me close again?
i miss you, you know.
-
im happy for autiti, twinne and hubby's presence! <3>
thank God for them this entire week! -GEEHEE

let this be our prayer

adeline`
agnes`
anqi`
bianca`
danae`
daphne`
eleanor`
joybf`
juliana`
kimmie`
matilda`
mavis`
melanie`
michelle(xiaokeai)`
michelleng`
mushroom`
peishi`
selina`
seon`
serena`
shermin`
sherilyn`
shixian`
sylvia`
yanhui bbie<3`
yaoying`
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10ofus<3`
afiqah`
amanda`chowchow<3`
athirah`
broc`
cpsatheletes<3`
cedarVOC`
cedargirls'vball`
carine`
clement`
ellakorkor<3`
eva`
evelyn`
faith`
germ`
haiyun`
inez daddy`
jinhui`
joyce`
kristine`
ksmsab`
lindanainai(:`
liuhwa`
melissa`labpartner!`
meryl darling<3`
mujia autiti<3`
ngteng`
cpsathletes(=`
smartsmart weiling'er`