5th sept.
cine-k-box, heeren-37°, cine-ljs-mug(:
k-box had never been so emo.hmm.iwonderwhy.
bought 3 chocolate fusion cookies(: $ 6.40.
autisticpartner,hubby,twinnie,korkor<3
thanks for the day.
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6th sept.
training as usual, glad i supp? shrugs-
unwell, tired.
felt lighter after a call from kimmie?
it really did help (: thanks beeep.
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afraid.detestful, fearful 7th.
wonder why.its just=/
too many things happening on the 7th of each month.
a day i think of him,her and YOU*.
a day i'll break down,
a day my nervous system failed me,
a day i lost myself,
a day i faced reality,
a day i wanna take off the facade,
a day i bow down and surrender,
a day i tightened the knot within me,
a day i'll coop in my room and cry all day,
a day i face 4 walls silently,
a day of self-manipulation,
a day im all alone.
would u mind giving me a call sometime in the day tmr?
i fear the silence.
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i'll be drunk later.4 bottles of vodka,
all mine, i need to get drunk, i need to break free.
i shall hold no more hopes, i don't want another fall,
im bruised, battered enough.
i wouldn't mind if u leave, but provided u're able to get rid of every trace u left behind
which includes the places, the things, the memories.
its all impossible.
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here i am to worship, here i am to bow down.
all i can do now is pray,
pray for acceptance,
pray for forgiveness,
pray for dreams.
dreams are seedlings of reality.
is that true? i hope.
for i know im asking for the ALMOST impossible.
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won't be blogging till 11sept perhaps?
the plane crashed into my world,
it shattered me totally.
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let this be our prayer
