Ocean's apart day after dayAnd I slowly go insaneI hear your voice on the lineBut it doesn't stop the painIf I see you next to neverHow can we say foreverWherever you goWhatever you doI will be right here waiting for youWhatever it takesOr how my heart breaksI will be right here waiting for youI took for granted, all the timesThat I thought would last somehowI hear the laughter, I taste the tearsBut I can't get near you nowOh, can't you see it babyYou've got me going crazyI wonder how we can surviveThis romanceBut in the end if I'm with youI'll take the chanceOh, can't you see it babyYou've got me going crazy-day by day i yearnmy heart got weaker as the days go by.perhaps thru these traumas and pain,i'll never dare again.i don't cry,for fear to tear,-im slipping off the edge;im hanging my the tread-a part of be can't bear to let you go.i'll be somewhere looking over you,
everytime u needed someone to be there.
its been 22 days since i held u close
let this be our prayer
another week has gone by;
my world is dead and disintegrating before my eyes.
the tragic reality.
greater dreams to fulfil.much more to pursue.
cliche
let this be our prayer
it is always the darkest before dawn.
weeks have gone by, everything's fading away.
a misty morning doesn't always mean a foggy day.
i'm being strong, holding on to faith that the 'sun' within me will 'rise' again.
leave that facade on me; don't bother to remove.
09/10/06 till then, you won't see me appear.
let this be our prayer
Linxin. I'm not her. :D
Hm, beeep! :D she's rather busy these days. Mugging her head off! I'm wondering how does she actually manage in keeping her mind in the mood of studying. I know I cant. CANT. =/
Had a conference just 2 nights ago. and. she was SOO whiny! =/ you can never imagine it that bad. but yes, lol. i sppose? hhm, went crazy, reading out e lyrics, playing that song off the piano... the best song! i love that music. :D or sth. =/ just whining... hm. i must emphasize that point.
stay strong. love, beeeeeeeeeep!*
-till when i've the inspiration to blog stuff, i would.
let this be our prayer
Lin Xin is a HAPPY LITTLE KID (x
i've been whining and saying this all day, haven't i?
Lin Xin will be mugging, kept busy.
she wants to thank a few people here,
firstly my all time Blabbering Partner`kimmie. thank God for her. (: really do. beeps*
next CHOWCHOW! birpee(: beeps*i want my big bear hug(:
then... babyboy too? she has been hearing me rant and whine(: keeping me strong. i didn't tear just now! believe me! i won't!
x) DIK ELTTIL GNORTS a si niX niL
-geehee
let this be our prayer
5th sept.
cine-k-box, heeren-37°, cine-ljs-mug(:
k-box had never been so emo.hmm.iwonderwhy.
bought 3 chocolate fusion cookies(: $ 6.40.
autisticpartner,hubby,twinnie,korkor<3
thanks for the day.
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6th sept.
training as usual, glad i supp? shrugs-
unwell, tired.
felt lighter after a call from kimmie?
it really did help (: thanks beeep.
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afraid.detestful, fearful 7th.
wonder why.its just=/
too many things happening on the 7th of each month.
a day i think of him,her and YOU*.
a day i'll break down,
a day my nervous system failed me,
a day i lost myself,
a day i faced reality,
a day i wanna take off the facade,
a day i bow down and surrender,
a day i tightened the knot within me,
a day i'll coop in my room and cry all day,
a day i face 4 walls silently,
a day of self-manipulation,
a day im all alone.
would u mind giving me a call sometime in the day tmr?
i fear the silence.
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i'll be drunk later.4 bottles of vodka,
all mine, i need to get drunk, i need to break free.
i shall hold no more hopes, i don't want another fall,
im bruised, battered enough.
i wouldn't mind if u leave, but provided u're able to get rid of every trace u left behind
which includes the places, the things, the memories.
its all impossible.
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here i am to worship, here i am to bow down.
all i can do now is pray,
pray for acceptance,
pray for forgiveness,
pray for dreams.
dreams are seedlings of reality.
is that true? i hope.
for i know im asking for the ALMOST impossible.
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won't be blogging till 11sept perhaps?
the plane crashed into my world,
it shattered me totally.
):
let this be our prayer
im SICK & TIRED;ADEUS-all this facade i cannot put on anymore.let me bleed till my dying day.
let this be our prayer
Time to say goodbye -- I'll go with you
When I'm aloneI dream of the horizonand words fail;yes, I know there is no lightin a room where the sun is absent,if you are not here with me.At the windowsshow everyone my heartwhich you set alight;enclose within methe light youencountered on the street.
Time to say goodbye. -- I'll go with youto countries I neversaw and shared with you,now, yes, I shall experience them.I'll go with youon
When you are far awayI dream of the horizonand words fail,and, yes, I knowthat you are with me;you, my moon, are here with me,my sun, you are here with mewith me, with me, with me.-
i fear farewell,be it this one,the next one.i'm afraid.time so say goodbye it may seem,but those days won't ever leave our memories,part of us u've beennow and forever it'll always be.you're here not by chance but by choice,to instill, to change, to mouldus; the future batches of fine athletes.we'll be here, somehow doing you proud,knowing, assured that you'll be somewhere;within us cheering us on.-Too much lovesomehow becameno love at allover this farewell bottlewe can’t manageeven a friendly smileonly the candleseems to be ableto generate some feeling all nightit weeps little wax tears.nobody says it was gonna be easy;
for us to part.
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let this be our prayer
31st august - 2nd september.
throwers 06' farewell.
a smile but well planned and meaningful event.
31st.
teacher's day celebration was fun filled.
had fun taking un-glam videos in the hall with evelyn and gang.
alrights.much fun and laughter then.
went back to cedar primary,
recollecting on the times we had, the childhood memories.
the hugs, the innocence, the greenery.
my lil avril is p4 now(: and i realised how much her cute little smile can change my day(:
i love the scenery there,
i love the memories created there,
i love the innocence there,
i love the glorious moments there,
and all that i had.
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home after getting a fbt shorts with kimmie at the warehouse.
did up the sec 4s cards and letters. (shine ur torch thru e card?)
then practised piano and off to kimmie's house.
we both forgot our facial foam_-_
okay.. then we arrived.
had nothing but alcohol that night(:
but it was just that little bit(:
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1st sept.
1am - 5+am.
we were roaming at the park, along the beach.
spending time tgt with the sec 4s and others.
got bitten. but it all don't matter.
slept on the breakwaters,
trying to make sure the neither the ants nor mosquitoes get to u.
bite,bit,bitten me for all they want.
no stars/sunrise/sunset.
it was cold, real cold.
then we left at bout 5.30 i supp?
took turns to take our baths and slept.
waking up nauseas and feeling worse. =/
sorry for creating that bit of trouble for you all.
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then had breakfast,
went escape. i played nth much i supp.
just getting jamie all drenched for once(: hopefully not last):
didn't felt like eating ben and jerry's.
hmm. nvm. the day will come.
then they went cycling and me rollerskating.
we all went different ways=/
alrights. been sometime since i last skated,
but it was pretty fine i guess.
other then the occasional stumble(:
just enjoy feeling the breeze carressing on my face.
feeling my hair fly to the rhythm.
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then i got to rush for piano.
was late for i lost my way at bedok):
okay.anyway i think i drifted during piano. im simply too tired.
went to some restaurant to celebrate mum's birthday.
nth can change my bland taste buds. so yeah.
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back.
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1st-2nd sept.
all went too fast.
i didn't know what exactly happened.
had just arrived and all just started so quickly.
i felt so cold. all alone. no comfort.
all e times spent with the sec4s, all just making me drift,
it all seems so vivid, so short.
speeches by jasmine and sec4s.
tears tears.
soaked tissues.
drink-drank-undrunk.
i didn't drink much for i know
its not good, i'll start blurting all my thoughts,
all the aches, all the sadness.
i guess i looked horribly hagard,
i guess i sounded worse,
and felt worst.
i revealed my terrible side,
the side of me in verge of breaking down.
the tired me, the really afraid me.
dreamt of me waking up w/o u by my side.
it frighten me real bad. my dear
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jamie -> my roomie in thailand. our ever wonderful cranky leader. u'll never know how much i miss u. despite u saying, u're bad at hugs. but it all touched me the same, as deep.
amanda`chowchow ->my chowchow aka fellow left handie. the one that nv fails to cheer me up. the one that always gets drunk with kimmie. the one that really cared and makes me feel comforted.
amelia -> my ever so respected senior. the one who's so mature, and exudes the X-quality. the one that encouraged and motivated me ever so much.
yani -> she's part of me in thailand. part of all the fun. part of all the jokes she cracked. she made me cry.
haiyun-> my green lovely. the one who loves torto the way i do. and dolphin too. i really do miss her.her hugs make me cry, real hard. real tight hugs we share.
goodbye my dearest sec 4s.
you know you'll never leave our hearts.
never to be forgotten.
all that u've instilled in us is here to stay. never to leave.
all the impact u had on us, whether big or small. all are positive.
all the best for your future endeavours.
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dear,
you know its just so important to have u by my side,
to sense ur presence arnd me.
i just wanna hold u close and tight,
hold on to the night with you.
i feel comforted, warmed, loved, different by your side.
i can't express.
all the memories created, never to be forgotten.
i won't , i can't , it ain't really possible.
at this point of time... imu<3
let this be our prayer
