YAWN!!!as u can see, im tired really tired physically and mentally.mujia, ella, inez came my house! n made my day(: thanks lovelys.INEZ DADDY! -bon voyage! enjoy your really short trip. pray that everything goes on well. LOVESu! a flying kiss for u! muacks! <3MUJIA A`P! -iknow u're always here! we'll be happy autistic pple! -geehee (i'll try) TWINNIE! -iLOVEkorkor too! (x love being doted by u! <3 -geeheeDEAR! -i misses u a great deal!rahh- whatever that may come into our way, our love shall remain ever so strong.we're a part(ofeachother) and never apart. LOVES <3im tired, really tired.
swung really low today.
/i want to drink alcohol and whack my head against the wall/ i want to drink mercury!
ran away to a faraway land.
im numb, im moodless.-i've lost my way; lost my mind.
let this be our prayer
my old injuries seems to be getting worse. can you stop torturing yourself. stop making even when u have many things in your mind.its hurting me.it makes me feel bad, and guilty. stop it please.
before i slit myself--------------------------------------------------------------
I do,i do, i do cherish you All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I do
I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do
I love you this much I do
In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day, I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Til my dying day I do (I'll cherish you my baby)
Cherish you (This much I know it's true)
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice I will (I'll always love you baby)
Love you still (This much my love it's true)
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do
I love you this much
Yes I do (I really love you)
I do (I really love you)
If you're asking do
I love you this much
Baby I do (I'll cherish you my baby)
Cherish you (This much I know it's true)
From the depths of my soul I
t's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking me do
I love you this much
Baby, I do I do
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confide,speak,rant,share,i'll be here to keep you in my embrace and kiss your tears away. this is just the song for us. just YOU and ME! <333>
let this be our prayer
somehow i decided to blog(:
wasn't well in class? tummy ache/cramps/sneezes/headaches
hmm. yeah. ahh well. hahh.
i was mending my spike shoes while the teacher is teaching?
i shall NOT doze of in class again, before matters become worse=/
yepp.school ended.went to pass hubby book and find DEAR! geehee- oh ya. thanks hubby for the heart-shaped thingy(:
feeling mixed/weird.oh my goodness.but it shan't affect me.okay.was happy that dear came training! (: i meant alot, and im serious, it meant alot!
had some chinese assignment and this phrase made me ponder:将内心的隐秘昭示于善人，会成为他精神上的负担 however ,
i want to share your burden.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
After some time I've finally made up my mind
she is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
to tell her I love her
i've found my LOVE! <3> dear.I know, that I'll be ok nowcos' this time it's realI lay my love on youIt's all I wanna doEverytime I breathe I feel brand newYou open up my heartShow me all your love, and walk right throughAs I lay my love on youI was lost in a lonely placeCould hardly believe it (yeah)Holding on to yesterdaysFar, far too longNow I believe its ok cause this time it's realI lay my love on youit's all I wanna doEverytime I breathe I feel brand newYou open up my heartShow me all your love, and walk right throughAs I lay my love on youI never knew that love could feel so goodLike once in a lifetimeYou change my worldI lay my love on youYou make me feel brand newShow me all your love, and walk right throughAs I lay my love on youI lay my love on yout's all I wanna doEverytime I breathe I feel brand newYou open up my heartShow me all your love, and walk right throughAs I lay my love on youI lay my love on youYou make me feel brand newYou open up my heartShow me all your love, and walk right throughAs I lay my love on youAs I lay my love on you my lifelong commitment to love you.you know i love you<333>
its unbelievable how u made me feel.
something is missing when i'm missing you.
let this be our prayer
hush lil girl, i'll be right here when your world comes tumbling down.
running back to my shell; hiding in there; hibernate.
will you be my shell?
-perished.
hold me in your arms, be my shell.
let this be our prayer
first day of school.did maths till 2+am yesterday and it was supposed to be self checked and its not compulsory to finish it? bleah- my beauty sleep. =/
okayy.was kinda nice being back w classmates and stuffs(: hahh. okay.
somehow i experienced another moodswing and swing really low.fell into some depression drowsy state and ya.started decorating my foolscap cover and stuffs. ): i can't get high. and i slept on the floor using e chair as support during music lessons. -geehee. like who cares? im not in the mood so socialise.
bleah bleah.whatver.
then went to inform coach that i won't be going for training as i thought it was just basic courtesy to do that. and he was like
'go loh,i have so many other students anyway'
'if i don't let u go, and if u don throw well, i'll be blamed'
'if i let u go, and u don perform well during competition, that's your problem and i won't get involved.'
'if u throw badly or don't reach your target, that's your problem.'
can't he stop cursing me that i won't throw well. sighhs. whatever. its just one of the stuffs clogged up in my saturated brain. bleah! ):
i guess i'll just do my best and trust that God is fair. i'll work hard, train hard. and just do my best.
if only results really doesn't matter.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
iNEEDu
dear.longing for you by my side.
your hug is ever so warm.
whr were you?i want to be in your warm embrace,safe and snug. im feeling really cold out there.every kiss, imprinted on my heart.Here on the pale beach, in the darkness;
With the full moon just to rise;
We sit alone, and look over the sea,
Or into each other's eyes. . .
A lovely night, the moon comes up and the stars shimmerjust for you and me.
Now i sink into you,entrust my life into safe hands.look into my eyes, whisper into my ears and tell me u'll love me.its all so obvious that im loving you,dear <333>---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
it'll be a better day tmr.
and i'll bring all my spirit down to train for 14th july.
let this be our prayer
this shall be a short post(: promise to do my work(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY-
babydaughter juliana! & chantal! (: alrights. was late for trng. and i reached ju's house at bout 7.45? and im one of the earliest to leave! wow. alrights. its my first time cabbing alone! (: hahh. send the cab plate no. to my mum. that sounds so yanhui. hahh. alrights(: geehee-
all i did was lay on the chair beside the pool. indulging in the tranquility of the surroundings(:
i'll cherish you for life;love you from the depths of my soul.
no more broken heart
no more incompleteno more lonelinessno more emptiness
(: all becos the presence of
yourLOVE,
myLOVE ,
OurLOVE! and
our mutual understanding. (:
dear(: muchLOVE! <333
let this be our prayer
training was better.after clarifying w coach. (: guess everything will be fine. at least that's what i hope.. yepp. lots of things to do. gotcha rush. i need more time! woots-
i <3 PIANO! (: -geehee.
misses u,DEAR. (:
now that i've found you, i'll hold on to it as long as my heart continues to beat!
indulging in the bliss of true love<3
your voice, your tears, your smile, your kiss always kept in my heart. only you can, only u will, only you.can fill the emptiness in my soul w your LOVE.
LOVE.
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
let this be our prayer
training was fine i guess.standthrow was satisfying. starting out with 5 steps now.
rather badly done.but i'll persevere on now that i found u.<3
training tmr and the day after.i've got lots to do.hopefully lunch out with dear on sat if she can.
homework seems endless.im trying my best to make use of every minute to complete my work, rest or whatsoever.mug.mugging hard.pray for me that i'll finish my work.all my piano stuffs, my training and all the homework.thanks yanhui bby' for all the help! (: hahh. oh ya. thanks for maggi. geehee-(:
在茫茫人海中找到彼此，这份爱难得可贵，好浪漫，好幸福
深深地感受到爱的滋味。酸甜苦辣，一一藏在心里的最深处。
酸：分离的那一刻好痛，心里倍感加伤。
甜：珍惜和你度过的每一份每一秒。
苦：自己一个人孤独的时候，好冷，好寂寞。
辣：相遇的那份喜悦，好兴奋。
好希望这段爱情能长久，好希望没人干涉，每人给我们施加压力。带着我，我们一起走到一个没人，幽静的草原上，望着星星在闪耀。
hold your hand. we'll stroll down the coast, our neverending road of love.
im out of my mind, everything's overwhelming and out of control when im missing you.
u've made my life meaningful, made everything worthwhile.
u've gave me the strength to continue.
u've gave me all the love i need.
its simply unbelievable how u've mould my life, DEAR.
hold on to my heart.as long as u feel it beat, be sure that i'm loving u.<333
okay. time to mug.mugging hard.(: we'll all go thru this tgt dear. (:
let this be our prayer
guess everything's fine. its time to focus and mug. training wasn't that bad i guess.
many things.
everyone's getting depressed.
i don like that.
but we'll all be strong. (: for there is love.
LOVEyou DEAR.
i'll never forsake you.
NEVER. in my entire life.
i'll never bear to let you go.
you're part of me.
you make the picture complete.
every moment spent with you is a moment i TREASURE!
BLISSFUL whisper into my ears and tell me you love me.
let this be our prayer
training wasn't that good.neither was it that bad.but today's friendly match was horrid. my throws hover around 15m. and im utterly disappointed with myself. oh wells. cried as usual. the sun wasn't out. and im really cold, really really cold.and seon came along and i pestered her for the song 'kiss goodbye'.
finally the
sun is out. the lovely sun
dried my tears and
warmed my soul.
my wrist seems injured. the nerves aren't functioning well. it feels handicapped. probably im just tired. elbow hurts shoulder hurts. probably its alright. they'll heal after sometime. all i need is some rest. shan't let this be an excuse for my lousy performance. shan't let this hinder me, i'll be strong and tide thru all this, with your love<3>
i don't wish to be the cause of all troubles. i feel terrible somehow. i don't know how to explain. but its eating into me. i know i shouldn't be distracted at this point of time. but its reallyreally getting into me.tell me you're fine. don't distant away from me. share your burdens and problems with me like how we used to rant to each other in the past. i don't want u to go away. no matter what's happening, how things end up to be, will u not lock me out of your world? sighhs. i don't want things to turn sour. i dono what im thinking bout, donno what im talking about.if you know im talking bout u, and i don't want us to distant. pls get to me and say you care. i want to tell you that i really care. and that i don't wish to be locked out of your world. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------[just for u.]
feeling so attached to you my dear;you're here, there's nothing i fear.much more love to experience and share,and its all about the unconditional care.its this magical chemistry between us,even the moments on the bus,or just walking along the beach hand in hand,means the whole entire world to me. <3
let this be our prayer
training was dead. really dead. better off not going? _-_ doesn't serve e purpose anymore.
nvm. i'll just TRY my best to have fun.
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went to ella's house at sengkang.w yanhui and mujia. (: supposedly study. but ya.. not much done. was really tired. then.. met wenyi and inez at the beach. was rather afraid at first. cos of all e nightmares and some phobias. but ya. its went on quite well i suppose(x
yepp.didn't really have time to stargaze as everyone wanted/had to leave. so ya.. just tagged along. then wenyi and me alighted at hougang mall.just wanted to spend time tgt and ya.we'll stargaze someother times.but thank God the weather was rather pleasant.
<3>its undescribable; its simply magical.its just all the comfort, warmth found in this that matters.its all this lil fond memories that we share,time passes so fast when we're tgt..there's probably lots of uncertainty,much more people involved,much more to worry.no matter where fate brings us;whereever is our destiny,im going to hold on tight,i'll never let you go till the day my life is thru.my love for u will remain unchanged.it'll be strong.all this are kept in one secret and still spot,where only you and i has the key to it.whatever challenges tt we might face;we'll fight it tgt,and survive this ordeal as one.nothing's gonna come between;my love for you will never cease.ilu my entire life.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------okayys. moody. tough week ahead. more to settle. lots to endure. give me strength.to you: im sorry, i know i've hurt you, i know i've disappoint you. im sorry to have let u down. i don't ask for your forgiveness, but will you please be strong? we'll still rely on each other. ups or downs, we'll still share. im sorry to have hurt u. sorry to have made u sad. sorry to have left u alone in the cold dark night. im sorry to leave. i don't know what to say. i just hope that u'll brace up and be happy. this is probably redundant. its just how i feel.mixed):
let this be our prayer
if only everything was so simple;
the world will be a better place.
probably everything is just so simple,
probably not.
sometimes;heartfelt emotions and the overwhelming love,
is probably just not what we can control.
im glad im back;
back into your arms,
and kiss the hurt and loneliness away.
back into this painful but worthwhile place.
this trip was probably a painful test of our love;or maybe this was just a blessing in disguise.it made me realise the importance of you;
the
NEED for you by my side.
probably it truely is a
NEED and not a WANT.
my life hovers arnd you and there isn't a moment where you're away.
there shan't be anymore parting i hope.
its really a mental torture;
a hole in my heart;
wound left open bleeding profusely;
and your sweetness patches it up.
but it really aches.
i had enough. don't want anymore times without you.
it really hurts.
it really is an agony. finally the long awaited day has arrived!
though i need sometime to adjust back,
but the thought of having u darlings back my side is simply wonderful.
nothing prevails the
sweetness the 5 of u brought to my life.
touched. loved. everythg seems
simply perfect.and now im back in your arms dear.
feeling so
safe and snug.the chill within me is going away.
your voice filled my mind;your kiss chase my tears away;your warmth fills my heart;and your love fills my soul.the night sky is enchanting. its shining just for u and me. (:(x. huggs. <3. color="#000000" size="1">sorry snail. sighhs. hope u find a place in heaven. God bless you my lil thing.
let this be our prayer
hello hello! im back home! (: HomeSweetHome! wootsi! training was slack.
thanks loads!
DADDY! : thanks for the boquet of flowers and others! (: aww. your sweetness is making me experience sugarrush!
AUTISTICPARNTER! : Wootsi! missed u tonnes! (: -beams. hahh. thanks for everything!huggs- YANHUIbby! : heya! hahh. thanks for the blue rose(: geehee. missed you too! rahh.- ilu.
TWINNIE! : hahh! huggs- remember our sunset date! (:
DEARmmy! : thanks for sustaining my life with all the sweetness.remember all the lil promises we pledged.remember all that we share. loveyou<3-i've got a heart embraced in saturated fat due to the sugar you lovelys showered on me!<333finally survived this ordeal. its been a long horrible one.:):
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyesS
he's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holdin' on
So tell me where do I start'
Cause it's breakin my heart
on't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray'
Cause heaven knows
My friends keep telling meThat if you really love herYou've gotta set her freeAnd if she returns in timeI'll know she's mineSo tell me where do I start'Cause it's breaking my heartDon't wanna let her goMaybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Why I live in despair'Cause wide awake or dreamingI know she's never there
And all the time I act so braveI'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me soMaybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray'
Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows
stones- can anyone tell me what's going to happen next? i dare not think, dare not step forward, afraid to look back, afraid topursue, afraid to venture. im afraid of being hurt, afraid of another disappointment, afraid of falling and never able to pick myself up again. im tired. shan't continue posting. just want to tell u all that i really appreciate the 5 of u! (:
let this be our prayer
had a great time today. it was fabulous, it was fantastic(:
window shopping
cum eating at pastamania and sakae sushi
cum arcade
cum all loads of fun!
thanks for this lovely day!
DEAREST yanhui`bby , PRECIOUS wenyi`mmy , ONE AND ONLY mujia`apmemories.Staring at the moon so blueTurning all my thoughts to youI was without hopes or dreamsI tried to dull an inner scream but yousaw me through
Walking on a path of airSee your faces everywhereAs you melt this heart of stoneyou take my hand to guide me home and nowI'm in love
You took my heart awaywhen my whole world was grayYou gave me everythingand a little bit moreAnd when it's cold at nightand you sleep by my sideyou become the meaning of my life
Living in a world so coldyou are there to warm my soulYou came to mend a broken heartYou gave my life a brand new start and nowI'm in love
You took my heart awaywhen my whole world was grayYou gave me everythingand a little bit moreAnd when it's cold at nightand you sleep by my sideyou become the meaning of my life
Holding your handI won't fear tomorrowHere were we standwe'll never be alone
darling wenyi, hush hush. no more tears from me and so from you. (: i'll be back. huggs.
hubby! woots. loveyou(: energised by your bars, sweetened by your letters(:
autistic partner! be happy too!! i'll be here for u somehow! (:
you lovelys made up my sky. (: forever etched closely to my heart.
rain or shine.day or night.we'll be there for each other(:
let this be our prayer
This is someone
INVADING!
This person wants LinXin to quickie cheer up and become crazy and happy again.
This person also hopes LinXin will smile for herself, not for anybody else. Because she and the other person would be unhappy this way.
This person also wants LinXin to know that she's behind her forever. And she can cut off her ear your LinXin to speak to anytime. (Isn't that Vincent van Gogh?)
Lastly, this person would like to tell LinXin that she loves her
very very much! In a
STRAIGHT way, of course. (x
YOU + I = <3<3, BYE!
let this be our prayer
Nothing i did was ever good enough for me.instead of being happy about what i could do, i felt frustrated about those i couldn'tinstead of relaxing myself, it turned me into a nervous wreck
i wanted everything now, and i wanted the results fast.My mind was always playing out why something went wrong yesterday and what could go wrong tmr, not what was going right, right now.
berating myself wasn't going to help, so why do it?the key to having a good time was to not be so hard on myself but to, well, love myself more.
after all, if i can't be gentle on myself, who's going to be that for me?
let this be our prayer
my 5 senses.
see the sadness in my eyes;
here the sniffing of my nose.
taste the sourness of my tears;
smell the fragrance of the past;
feel the warm tears soak your sleeves.
roaming aimlessly in this forbidden world;
where everything seems so near and yet so far;
where the tranquility of the soul cease to exist.
the wrenching of the heart is unbearable;
fill it with your breath, in the warm embrace of your hug.
senses of my day.
(x a smile for you and a smile for me x)
let this be our prayer
