its all over(: everything's over. its the end of c girls):
didn't actually have a meal with seniors and coach. oh wells.
now... starting afresh to b girls. hmmmph..
im tired. javelin and track's starting to pressurized me. sighhs.
JIA YOU bahh.
michelleliew:are you alright? take care please. will be here to lend u a listening ear.
kimmie:get well soon! coming tmr?
goodbye seniors. ilu all.
let this be our prayer
thanks for those who shown so much concern and showered so much love. its greatly appreciated((:
apparently, im feeling like a living dead and a souless zombie.
sighhs. i shan't be filled with hatred. but its all like a horror nightmare.
oops. im seldom so vulgar=/
okayy. anyway. muchloves to my
twinkorkor ,
michellelim who fed me bread beginning of last year ,
serena , mingen , mavis , michelle and the rest who cared about my presence.its all over, and we're probably no more C'girls very very soon. nevermind. we're progress, suddenly reluctant to see the sec 4s leave)):
sighhs. so many black sheeps among us. rahhh!
nvm.. part 'n' parcel of life. things will get back on track` we'll be happy we'll be back training again from the start. we'll all be striving for better results.
sighhs. feeling so apologetic to many many.. and even to coach. we didn't do him proud=( sorry!
let this be our prayer
im a disappointment. yes i am. nvm..
just leave me alone out here.
the unfeeling world,feeling lost and lost,so much of to remorse,but everything's twirled.won't someone just give me an injection,and put me to sleep?yes, im runing away from reality,but i need to before i lose my grip.i don't know how and what i am in your eyes now,i know there's no way time can turn back,but i really did try at first,but no one seems to see me growl.hid myself in a lonely wrecked corner,hoping God will come and help me out,but nothing came,and all that came was the coroner.don't put me down,show me grace.i'd rather u put me to sleep,to end my annoying face.
let this be our prayer
im a disappointment. yes i am. nvm..
just leave me alone out here.
the unfeeling world,feeling lost and lost,so much of to remorse,but everything's twirled.won't someone just give me an injection,and put me to sleep?yes, im runing away from reality,but i need to before i lose my grip.i don't know how and what i am in your eyes now,i know there's no way time can turn back,but i really did try at first,but no one seems to see me growl.hid myself in a lonely wrecked corner,hoping God will come and help me out,but nothing came,and all that came was the coroner.don't put me down,show me grace.i'd rather u put me to sleep,to end my annoying face.
let this be our prayer
hello(:
training just ended. okayy.
shall blog bout yesterday's outing with autistic partner, my new found ellakorkor and 7 yr old cousin!(:
hahh. ok. by the way.
ella-shall u be my twin instead? hahh. we go so much in common(x
hahh. okie. we went ice skating. didn't manage to make mujia fall! wahlao! pissed laa! =P hahh.
ok. and i fell. and poor ella's butt hurt! oh my. yesyes. i've got an adventurous cousin! hahh.
and we went all the way to tampinese to play arcadE?! like. wth? hahh. ok. mu jia was retarded. hahh
and... hmm. my cousin bit ella's earpiece! hahh. and we started talking bout saliva amylase and starch and blah blah blah goes the digestive system. hahh.
newly cosolidated-i spent 7o bucks! wow?! hahh. ok. macs and macs. yawnns. hahh.
training now a days are all spikings and receives. ok. not as fun but im surviving fine. lol
next tues with PRESBYTERIAN HIGH. all my darlings... u better come support! hahh. tag me ya.. ok(:
let this be our prayer
My angel ever by my side
how lovely you must be ;
To leave your home in heaven,
to guard a child like me.
When I’m far away from home,
or maybe hard to play
I know you will protect me,
from harm along the way.
Your beautiful and shining face,
I see not , though you’re near
The sweetness of your lovely voice,
I cannot really hear.
When I pray , you’re praying too,
your prayer is just for me.
But when I sleep you never do,
You’re watching over me.
i need a warm hug. im both hyper and depressed. hmmph. contradicting.
oh wells. spiking was fun today. hahh. ok ok. whatever-_- _-_ im just tired.
once upon a time,
there was a bubbly little girl .
she was infactuated with volleyball,
and it meant everything to her.
after being sick for sometime,
she didn't bother.
as she continue training,
she got weaker and weaker each day.
one day , she was brought to see a doctor,
and she has a hole in her heart,
as well as lung problem
and severe internal complications.
she had to undergo an operation immediately,
but she refused and demanded it to be postpone,
till all the nationals competitions end.
and so she persevered.
and she played many many games,
and managed to enter the finals,
meantime, her condition was detoriating,
but no one realised.
so it was the finals,
it was a tough match and she fought it through.
up she jumped and spiked a beautiful ball,
they had won!
as everyone was rejoicing as she did,
she collapsed and was rushed to the hospital immediately
and had to be operated as soon as possible,
so now in she was in the emergency room.
so did she survive or died? at least she knows she had accomplished her mission. and there'll be no regrets. she loves her coach and her teammates, and the champion trophy was a remembrence and strength of hers. and the last person she saw was her coach and the smiles and cheers of the team.
survived or not? the story's not completed.
i just thought of this scenario out of sudden, its both positive and negative. the spirit of a volleyballer. its a matter how u interprete it anyway. yupps(: someone asked me to post this when i told her. yup.
WAIT! IM NOT DEPRESSED. hahh. ehh. ok.
let this be our prayer
nothing is permanent except change.
there's nothing we can do, can we? sometimes we're just forced to do what we don't want.
thus, adapt and make the best out of it is all we can do.
it feels better being sad then seeing others sad. oh wells.
changes after changes. i seriously hope everyone's find.
darling LIJIE! may your hand HEAL! God bless.
i think i'll never be able to grow up.
let this be our prayer
lost to xinmin today, but well. just another learning experience similar to ngee ann's?
but at least we managed to pick ourselves up and fight it through. so there shouldn't be much regrets. felt to helpless at the back. =/
ok. not much things to say, but i do have alot of things so speak to you. just don't know how voice out. ):
there's always a winner and loser in a competition, its not that we've failed, just had not succeed. JIA YOU JIA YOU! zhi yao you heng xin, tie chu mo cheng zhen. is that right? =
ok. all my darlings are back from OAC. i miss u DADDY , HUBBY and AUTISTIC PARTNER!((:
thanks netties for supporting us. i LOVE u guys.
okie. i shall remain HAPPY. i shan't get put down. UNDAUNTED.
let this be our prayer
RAHH!
decided to blog. there's just so much i want to get off my chest.
ok. everyone has gone for OAC and im like.. lonely. sighhs. and many things had happen within a day or so. got
outraged(/). ehhh. nvm.
ok. shall grumble to yanhui's turtle and whine in the diary. rahh. starting to miss daddy and all. sad life. ok. saw sl. haha. he's grown taller and im happy for him.
why is everyone getting so upset over one another. things weren't that bad. think things through and everyone will be fine after some self-reflection isn't it. if only things were so simply.
ok. im depressed as usual. at the same time. i've been rather high-_- RAH! screams! i want to go for a swim and get things back on track. i want a haircut like what i did after ngee ann's match and i'll be refreshed and energize.
if only things were so simply, but sometimes its just our silly DUMBass brain that made things difficult and complicated for us isn't it?_-_
let this be our prayer
